Changing seasons..

It's coming to that time of year again when the season changes from winter to spring. Oh how I love the spring! I love how the old dead looking branches are budding with new life. I love how the wild animals are beginning to start or expand their families. And I love how the dull earth is transformed with new growth!

It's also a transition period for me personally. I read this amazing blog that my dear friend S-A sent to me this morning and I couldn't believe how much of it was like she was reading my mind!!

She talked about feeling one way one day and then feeling the total opposite the next.. to the point of sounding like a hypocrite but not meaning to. As a small example for her, she loves her home to be clean and will go weeks with being a clean freak, then all of a sudden, it's like she doesn't care.. or she'll go months eating well and then go an entire season eating only junk food.. I can totally relate!

I get BIG aspirations.. (luckily most of which I don't share with people) and then never follow thru with them. For me, it's like something holds me back and I've narrowed it down to fear.. fear of success and fear of failing. If I succeed how will others see me? If I fail, how will others see me? It's like I'm playing tug-of-war but I'm at both ends! I can apply it to the simplest of thought patterns such as "do I call so-and-so today?".. if I call will they want to hear from me or will they just tolerate my call? Foolish thinking I know.. but it stops me dead in my tracks to connect with people.

It's a funny thing, how your mind can prevent you from being who you want to be or even who you know you are. Is it possible to be completely honest with yourself or does everyone fake it from time to time?

I'm looking forward to the transformations that are coming and hope they bring insight, wisdom and peace into my heart and into my life.

Bad bad blogger

I just went to my blog and saw I haven't posted anything since October!!! What's up with that! The past six months have flown by! I'm back to work full-time, I went to my sister's for Christmas, both Jen and Kris had a baby girl in November and I became a great Auntie again in April to another girl!! I'd say it's been a very good 6 months!

Raeya at Christmas.. she's getting so big!!

        

Claire - above and Ally & Claire - below

Ally above and last but certainly not least, Charlotte aka "Charlie". So many beautiful girls!!

Welcome to my first blog!

I figured that since so many people are blogging, I should join the craze. It's autumn in Vancouver and I think it has to be the most beautiful autumn I have ever seen. Have you noticed how beautiful the trees are this year? The colours are amazing! The maple and oak trees have the most incredible reds, yellows and oranges.. It's a photographers dream I tell ya! My best friend was out a few weeks ago and we went out to take pictures.. there were some really amazing scenes.. I'll post some of the pictures when I figure out how to do that. Anyway.. thanks for reading my first post.. I'll write more soon.