Time flies when your in rehab...

It was a long five months but I'm finally home again. After having a rotator cuff repair at UBC hospital I went to GF Strong for three months. It was probably one of the worst experiences of my life for the first month and a half and then, it was one of the best for the last month and a half! When I first got there I was triggered by many different things and was forced to face a few things head on, which is not something I had planned on doing. The more I tried to focus on rehabilitating my shoulder, the more distant and isolated I became. I almost missed out on some amazing new friendships.

I've always been so scared of what people think or say about me. Like it should make a difference on how I live my life. I worry that people will think I'm weird or weak or different. So what if I am? What if I do show emotion once in a while? Will the world end? Hell no! The world will continue on whether I'm in it or not. Whether someone sees me cry or wear pj's during the day. It will even continue if I give up my defences and join wheelchair sports. I have to laugh to myself because anyone who truly knows me, knows that I don't associate with people in wheelchairs let alone participate in an activity involving wheelchairs. But the desire is there to tear down that wall.. or at least open the window.

While at GF I was exposed to Basketball, handball, tennis, curling, swimming, target shooting and using a Floor Board which is the equivalent of a Wii fit board. It hasn't been easy getting involved but once I tried things, I found out I really enjoyed it.. even if I did feel stupid at times. It was the same as when I started to let my guard down and let people in. I met some amazing people with some truly amazing stories! Like the woman who lost control of her car and went down a steep embankment only to be rescued by an off-duty fireman minutes before her car blew up!! Or the man who was riding his bike to work, hit a rock, fell over his handlebars and is now a quadrapelegic but never stops working hard at his rehab. Its so true that there is always someone out there worse off than you are and that you are in control of your own destiny.

If there is one thing I became more aware of, it's that I am the only one who gets to decide if I'm happy or not and if I continue worrying what people think of me, then it will only hold me back. And if there is one thing I know for sure, its that anyone who cares about me will support me while I try out a new way of living.

See ya on the court!

Lions win again!

What an awesome game!! I actually got the hang of the game and loved it!! The only complaint I had was that ticketmaster sells you two full priced tickets but BC Place Stadium makes your attendant sit behind you!! What a rip off! We ended up sorting it out in the end but we were not happy as were other people who were seated in disabled seating.. especially those who have never been treated like that before! Then leaving the stadium to make it back to the skytrain was another gong show.. picture this.. its raining outside, dark and cold. We leave the stadium thinking the skytrain is right around the corner.. same place we came from.. right? WRONG! We get to where the train entrance is but there is not wheelchair access so we have to walk.. no kidding you.. about 4 blocks (we may have gone the wrong way) in the rain.. then when we get to where we were told to go.. the ramp is closed!! We have to walk part way back when I see a wheelchair sign pointing inside some shady looking building.. Jo and I go inside where it's even more shady go into the elevator and go to a door that has a smashed window.. closed.. good grief now what! We walk down this very shady hallway.. where we could have been murdered any second and no one would ever know.. and then we find the door to the outside.. walk some more in the rain and finally find the trains.. the ride back to Surrey was equally amusing.. drunk fools on the train.. drunk fools in costumes on the train.. my goodness.. what a night!! So much fun!!

I'm adding some pictures from the game and of people at the game.. like I said before.. there were some drunk fools in costumes!

 

 

Are you ready for some Football!

Yes I am going to my first football game tonight! BC Lions vs. Winnipeg Blue Bommers. I am totally psyched.. not that I'm a football fan but it will be the whole atmosphere.. and the junk food (so much for my diet today)! I'm hoping to take some good photos.. which is my hidden motive to go.. I've never taken pictures at a sporting event so I'm really looking forward to it.. I'll post the shots if they turn out good.. I'd love to go to a Canucks game soon too.. hockey is my sport!! Gotta love that Linden!!

Go Lions Go!